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jenyffermaria:Long day but sometimes the wrong choices bring us to the right places.

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1) I saw Zombieland tonight and it was awesomely hilarious. 2) As time-consuming as it is, I am *loving* the work I’m doing with the Anchorage film festival. The more I become involved with festivals, the more sure I become that it is what I want to spend the rest of my life doing. So glad I borrowed $100k for grad school… 3) Tonight I received another call from my Seattle bff who is currently in India. It’s so amazing to be able to talk to someone so far away. I miss her a lot. 4) Seattle is unfailingly beautiful, even when obscured by the inane plot points of a poorly-written romantic comedy. 5) As is too often typical for me, I currently spend most of my time missing a boy who is not even mine to begin with.

I really love xkcd. All credit goes to Matt (@mattharris5) for introducing me to it…

I’m still learning what I’m supposed to do with this thing called a ‘weekend.’  It has a whole different meaning now that I’m out of school and employed full-time.  I’m learning how to balance the rest and sleep that is required to make it through the next week with the things that I want/need to get done during those 65 consecutive hours that I don’t have to be at work.

Saturday I spent the entire first half of the day in bed.  My back is still complaining about that.  I slept and read some blogs on my Blackberry.  It was a good way to start the day.  I had plans to go out last night, but when it came time to do so, a night in was sounding so much more appealing.  Luckily I wasn’t alone in this, so my evening turned into eating candy corn and playing a board game (Life) with friends.

Today (Sunday) was my productive day.  I bought some new jeans, got my glasses fixed, and splurged on some new Disney DVDs at Best Buy.  I’ve spent the last few hours working on the volunteer database for the film festival.  As of today, the Anchorage International Film Festival is 68 days away.  I have a lot to do in those 68 days.  I’m so excited about the whole thing and I think that will generate enough energy to keep me motivated to get things done in this short timeline. 

I am getting settled into my job finally. I think I know to some degree what I’m supposed to be doing and how I’m supposed to get it done. Now the only missing ingredient is the motivation to make it happen!

I bought a car for the first time ever. The only two cars I’d owned in the past were both given to me. I may be less excited once car payments start next month, but as of now I think it’s pretty awesome. It’s a white 2007 Dodge Caliber and I love it. I had an auto start installed last week for the increasingly cold winter mornings and am already glad I did so.

My brother asked his girlfriend to marry him this weekend. He bought a very pretty ring and she, of course, said yes. They are very happy and I’m so excited for them. I’m just self-centered enough that their change in relationship status makes me reflect upon my own. My quasi-relationship is still in the can’t-happen-quite-yet stage. The 2500 miles between us may soon be nearly doubling. I am confident that I can be patient.

Life in Anchorage is nothing like what I expected but I am working to make it my own, regardless. I’ll be working for the film festival this year, which I am extremely excited about. I found a fun trivia night last night. Next week I’m going to First Tap with a new friend from work. My goal is, as the snow and darkness approaches, to make around myself activity-filled time that will not allow me to succumb to the boredom and weariness that often accompanies this time of year. Oh, and also still maintain time for a good book…

advances in tech have resulted in us being increasingly able to follow the lives of others, which has contributed to the term ‘celebrity’ being applied to more and more people. and when the number of celebrities rapidly increases, so will their perceived death rate (RIP DJ AM). if it weren’t for the internet, would we have even known of any of the celebrities that died this year (other than MJ and Farrah)? 

I’m back in the AK and slowly transitioning into life here.  I’m reconnecting with people while working on creating new relationships.  It’s a weird feeling to be in the place that I think of as the setting for my former life.  It feels different in so many ways, but I’m still unclear how many of those differences are actually just me.

I’m still without a car and a home, which makes me feel like a burden on my family and friends (a feeling that I detest).  The good news: a paycheck is imminent.  Well, eventually…

I think I spent more time this weekend trying not to think about work than I did anything else.  I’m hoping that this transition into the “working world” becomes a little easier with time.

I’m looking at taking on a fairly large volunteer project in my free time.  In all areas of my life I am behaving as if I am a real adult.  I’m hoping to ‘fake it till you make it’ as they say.  I’m beginning to doubt that I’ll ever truly buy this charade that I’m all grown up.

I had an epiphany this week (that I hashed out on Twitter a bit more) – I think that I’m more comfortable with the idea of wanting what I can’t have than actually having it and dealing with the ways that I will ultimately be disappointed due to the gap that always exists between expectation and reality.  I’m not sure what to do with this realization.